NifticLauren's Xanga

Fall 2007 Semester has Ended

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 21:27:33 GMT

This semester has finally ended.

Took my last two exams yesterday from 8-11am and 5-8pm. I know that I did not do well on these two exam, that's why I hate to take more than 1 exam on one day. You don't get enough to study them and end up getting bad grades because of that. Anyways its done, I cannot do anything about it anymore, just pray that the professors will give out a big curve. (Kinda impossible lol!)

So I will be working for one week then my sister will come visit. Hope it's gonna be a FUN winter break.

Final Exam

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 18:20:43 GMT

I know it's not the time to talk about the final exam yet, but im really freaked out about two of my finals.

I just received an email from one of my professors, she said that the final exam will be on 12/6.

I have Intermediate Accounting II fianl exam on the same day, man! How am I going to handle these 2 on one day? I hope I can move it earlier or something, I don't know cuz I don't want to take a different exam than everybody else. We will see... I just hope that I can do well becuz I really need that A. :P

It's really cold outside, so i hope ppl won't get sick becuz of the lovely weather. ^^

Yay for the weather! cuz I can finally wear my boots! See ya!

Who Am I?

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 13:20:30 GMT

I am very confused about myself lately:

Who am I?

What do I want?

Why can't I forget that person?

I know that we have no more chance but I am still calling you and ask you for a chance.

I know I am hurting another person while your hurting me...sigh!

I did not mean to hurt anyone, or make anyone fall for me, or do all kind of things for me.

I am a bad girl, I don't deserve any of those nice things.

Forgive me please, I will try to find my heart back and move on.

Fall Semester 2007

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 23:24:11 GMT

School started today, which is earlier than other schools, even earlier than high school. >.<

Marketing 3367 sounds fun but hard too. I do not like to speak out in front of many people, yes, I am shy! The professor is Korean, a good looking guy, but married already. ^^ He said that he will call on people in class, and also we need to do role plays during this semester. I am so nervous about the role plays because we need to turn in a 10 min. videotape, and also need to present in front of the entire class. Man! why do we need that class? I really don't like speech class!!! I'm thinking about to drop it but on the other hand, I know it will help me a lot to overcome my shyness. What can I do?

I hope this semester can go by fast and well.

A Horrible Feeling

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 17:49:17 GMT

Everytime I see you online, I got that horrible feeling. I can feeling myself shaking, and i cannot stop it.

I can't talk to you because I do not want make you feel annoyed
I can't talk to you because I do not want make myself fall into it again, even tho im not really over with you
I promised myself that I can do it, I can live without you, live in my own world without anyone.

When will I forget you, when will I get that thing called "love" out of my mind, when will I be a strong person?

I am scared of love, I am scared of relationship, I am scared...

I really really want to move on, I do not want those stupid feelings and desires in my mind.

It was a mistake from the beginning, from the day that we met each other.

Summer School is Almost Over

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 13:40:56 GMT

Man! summer school is suck ass! haha!

I got one more week left which is good

I did bad on my first exam around, but i think the second round is better than the first one. I just finished my management test, and i felt it was okay. I hope i can get a higher grade than the first but I dono if i can cuz the first grade was pretty good, like a B+, lol!

I know I have to work harder to get As in these 2 classes but im kinda lazy right now. I don't want to read anymore books but then i have to do so. I got 2 more exams next Thursday and Friday, which means there are 11 more chapters waiting for me to read. Man, i swear this summer i read wayyy too many cuz the international business class... I had to read 6 chapters for the first exam and 7 chapters for the second exam. Prof.? It's summer! why do you give us soooo much work huh? I hate reading.... poor me >.<

My new phone suppose to coming yesterday but then i called them and they told me that i cant get it til Friday! Fuck that lady, i was waiting for my phone for 3 days and i called you guys so many times and then you told me i won't get it til Friday? Ya have bad services! I want my new PHONE!!

Spiderman III

Sat, 05 May 2007 04:41:52 GMT

Just got back from the movie theatre

One of my friend bought the tickets for us ahead of time

It's my first time seeing a movie when it first came out

I never liked to movie theatre since I was young.

But American life made me this way, so its alright, cuz there is nothing else to do besides that.

Spiderman III totally disappointed me, I really don't think it's that great.

When we got out from that room, i saw lots of ppl waiting in the line for the next showtime.

What A Waste...! :P

So yeah, don't put too much expectation on a movie, I guess it's not worth it.

Fine

Fri, 04 May 2007 14:42:40 GMT

Your telling me not to wear shorts to work?

Fine, I won't wear it no more.

I won't get mad cuz ur just jealous... HAHA!

Loser!

VT Tragedy

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 02:10:10 GMT

I heard about the VT tragedy since yesterday but I never looked it up online or TV

My parents just asked me to watch the news with them about this tragedy.

I saw the victim's pictures and the things that happened around that day, I felt really really bad for them.

There were 4 professors being killed and many students. I can't believe how a person could kill that many people in a few hours. Those people might have a bright future but now they lost everything that they could have. No one called the police after the gunshot in the dorm which turned out 30 more people were being killed after another 2 hours.

I am very proud of one of the professors, he used his body to block the door and let the rest of his students dumpped out of the window. He was dead but his students will always remember him and pray for him.

It happened in one university and it can happen anywhere else. I hope that the government agencies can start to do something to protect us and the others.

It's a horrible incident for the students, teachers, and everyone in the world.

Never Give Up

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 23:13:05 GMT

Havn't touch xanga for a long long time

I still keep this account because of the old memories.

I'm using the Chinese blog right now but still don't feel like writing anymore feelings

On the other hand, I write a little each day to keep my own secret

Things are going weird/confused as days pass by

I have too little strength to keep them fresh

I know the ending is coming soon, but im still trying to make it better and better

I hope I will never give up, because it will turn me to another person forever.